And the day came
when the risk to remain tight in a bud
was more painful
than the risk it took
I love, love, love this poem and the way that it so simply speaks to transformation, risk, the comfort zone and the pain and beauty of potentially either fully expressed or consciously repressed.
Transformation is the risky, vulnerable, achingly beautiful process of fulfilling our highest potentiality, which can not be done within the confines of our comfort zone. To let the petals of potentiality unfold, we must release our grip on the past; on the old, worn out, usual choices; on the worry of a future that may or may never come. In order to fully blossom into that which we were meant to become, we must risk everything in this often uncomfortable process of transformation. We must trust, release and allow as we take humble, simple steps into the realms of the great unknown, the unnerving unfamiliar, the unbridled infinite possibility that awaits each and every one of us.
For, in our comfort zone, we rest back on the confines of how it's always been done. Ways often inherited from our ancestors, our societies, from the unknown voices of what "they" say. As we clutch to these ways, often, we step out of integrity, out of our truth in order to step into a circle of acceptance and surround ourselves with the comforts of normality, and the safety in numbers. This pattern plays out everywhere from our our playgrounds to politics; kids get hurt, and kids hurt back, we wage wars and engage in acts of aggression in the ironic guise of forcing peace. But then beings like His Holiness the Dali Lama, Mahatma Gandhi, Jesus Christ, etc. find the courage enough to step out of the perpetuating tension that has become the norm, and stand for something more gracious and compassionate and we are honored to witness the blossoming of such souls. But do we leave this work to those daring few? To those who are willing to step out of the luxury of the comfort of being led from the outer structure of things? To those who defy the reason-ability of it all, and instead tune in to the call of their soul? To those who take personal responsibility for the way things are now, and consciously play their own transformational roll in the way things are to become? These powerful, inspirational beings are beacons of truth and the last hold outs of hope. But this work of love and connection, that each of us so long for (though we often stand for its opposite), can not be done alone.
In our comfort zone, we rest back on the confines of the hand that has been dealt to us. We excuse ourselves from the fullness of our selves and our lives and the responsibility of our choices due to imperfect inner or outer circumstances. Wishing, waiting for a time, a body, an experience other than this, we often deceive ourselves by saying when xyz happens, when I have more money, more time, more stuff, a better body, a calmer mind, less stress, less dis-ease, then... Then I will be worthy, I will be loved, I will be motivated, I will be kind, I will be of service, I will be compassionate, I will live and thrive. Then I will be who I am meant to become. But the problem is,"then" is never coming, the list of excuses is a million miles long and we will NEVER, EVER get to the end of that list. The time to step into the fullness of our lives is now, beyond exception beyond excuse. Let's not waste one more second waiting, one more thought doubting, one more word hating. We can not afford one more breath to feed something less than whole, less than loving.
In our comfort zone, we rest back on the confines of the patterns of thoughts that hold us hostage to our habits and limit our perceptions to the antiquated pendulum of right, wrong, good, bad, doubt, fear,shame, blame, not enough. Even though these addictions are painful themselves, at least they are familiar. If we allow ourselves to continue to sing the age-old song of "not enough", we will never have to risk putting ourselves out there to be vulnerable, to be rejected, to be heart-broken, to be weak, to be authentic, to be in truth, to be in trust, to be in grace, to be strong, to be courageous enough to lead the magnificent lives of love that each and every one of us was meant.
Where in your life are you resting back on the confines of your comforts and living a little smaller than you were meant? Consider now, just one place that restricts the fullness of your potentiality. See how it seeps through your life and robs you of joy. Treat this as the most sacred place, the place that now holds the greatest unrealized possibility for you to step more fully into your life. Now acknowledge one thing that you could do to loosen the grip and begin to melt the edges of this boundary. And know that the day has come to step out of the familiar territory and take that first step into greater realms.
Get still and listen now. Listen, not with your ears, but with the fullness of your heart. Listen for the call of your soul. I know you can hear it... An urge, a longing, a ravenous yearning that won't go away no matter how you numb and try to block it out and excuse it out of existence. It's a call that has been there since your very first breath and will stay with you until your very last. And you can choose to hear and listen and bloom and express the full potentiality of your being. Or you can choose to repress and ignore. You and you alone must own the risk of your awakening.
But I am begging you now with tears in my eyes, to join me on this journey from bud to blossom because, I need you, you need you, this world needs you now more than ever to take the risk to manifest your highest. I know this radically courageous act of becoming (not in some distant time and place, but now) will not be easy. In fact, at times it will likely be the most difficult thing that we do. But we know, somewhere we know, that it will be worth it.